MF DOOM

 What I appreciate the most about art is that there's no right or wrong.  When I (attempt to) make art I like just thinking about what I'd like to see, and kind of painting this overly idealistic picture of a perfect world.  Like thinking about everything I find good in this world, without feeling too cynical towards myself.  And in that sense I find art freeing.  

But when I thought about it, if I'm free to explore what's good, I also have the freedom to explore my idea of what's "bad", what's evil.  And that strangely there might be something kind of freeing about that.  To take on this sort of evil mindset without any repercussions.  

What made me think about this was when I started listening to MF DOOM again.  It's obnoxious to type his name out in all caps lol, but that's just what you gotta do.  Maybe because I've been listening to a lot of music that's like, I don't know, not sinister, I found myself attracted to DOOM's bars.  Like thinking about some twisted scenarios of cheating on multiple women, or dissing dudes in front of their girlfriends, or just trying to get lucky at some bar.  There's this cool confidence in his music that's not loud and actively hostile, like some other rappers I'm used to.  So like while these other guys have this violent energy that almost says something like, yeah I ran out of jail and I'll keep running and keep shooting at dudes that get in my way, I'm dangerous don't touch me; DOOM's demeanor is more like, I know what I want and I'm going to get it, and you can't really stop me.  And I was like huh.  It's like a different type of villain.  And I feel drawn to that cool confidence.  Knowing what he wants and knowing he's gonna get it.  

Obviously DOOM's more than just a villain though; he's (not so?) surprisingly sentimental in some songs, talking about a girl who cheated on him in some song on Madvillainy, and then the "Deep Fried Friendz" song on MM FOOD, where he seems like he can't really trust anyone.  God this sounds like a trite point just typing it.  "Muh favorite rapper is more than just violence !!"  I have no point with this and I regret starting this paragraph.  

I think my point is, well it was nice listening to DOOM at the gym.  The energy of each song is something I typically am sensitive to.  And lately I listen to a lot of EDM that's just pure energy and fast drums and singing ladies and stuff like that.  But sometimes I'm just not feeling it.  Sometimes I listen to sad music, because the sadness tends to stem into anger which is great pre-workout, but also because sadness is a deep, potent energy in and of itself.  But then I started listening to DOOM and I was like, I like this.  Yeah it's confident.  Cool and confident.  It's bad I shouldn't be so cocky and smug.  But it feels so natural.  And as long as it's only playing in between my ears I figured it's something I can use.  

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